Dear Gail:
The inner conflicts are many, in fact they are wrapped up in such deceptive packages that one might never know the answer to whatever is bothering him. Fear, I would say, is the largest conflict bothering people. At any age, period in history—fear is the basis of the whole picture bothering mankind.
Tensions are the cause of conflicts. The desire for something and the fear of not getting the object of the desire is normally the cause of most tensions. Social tensions are caused by society placing the individual under the controls called respectability and prestige. Respectability is overrated by a half-million times, because all it amounts up to is vanity and pride. So many times it is false pride. Now the desire for something outside oneself always sets up a tension within the individual. For example, if you should want a new dress and couldn’t have it, a tension is established and society would call it a worthy ambition if you worked for enough money to get the dress; but if you stole the dress society would brand you an outlaw. Yet in the subconscious there would be no difference in how you got the dress, but the tension would be relieved when the dress came into your hands. On the other hand a third tension is set up when society brands you a thief because you haven’t lived up to the laws set by man—that you shall not steal from one another. This sets a guilt pattern within the individual.
This, in a way, is how inner conflicts work. Let’s take for example aggressiveness; it is a tension established by anger, because the objective mind (remember the letter on Depth Psychology?) is afraid of something gaining advantage over
it. Anger is an outer form of fear, and expresses itself in those who are mostly considered inferior—the other is those who are quick to agree with their adversaries. Anger is always a protective device to cover up one own weakness.
Tensions are common in man, both emotional tensions and mental tensions. And they are not without their benefit, for in setting up a tension, one forgets what may be actually bothering him. One metaphysical teacher I knew once said—
if you set up a desire for something, don’t keep the mind on it, for that will surely keep you from getting it, but establish another desire in the opposite direction or start a conflict which will take the mind off the original desire and it will start working for you, manifest itself without any obstacles which one creates when thinking about a desire.
The electro-magnetic field surrounding the body is subject to ridges, barriers and inflows. These inflows may come in a half-dozen ways: human communication, both verbal and silent, inflows from mechanical elements like noises, inflows from reading, inflows from the elements, weather, stars, planets, beings in outer space, beings in the spirit world, from the senses, etc. All these inflows may somehow form a ridge. For example, if you try to hold off something, a small ridge may start in the electro-magnetic field about you, and this can become an aberration, but if after established, the same type of incident recurs and nothing is done but your reaction to it, then a lock is established over the aberration and eventually a number of locks and the ridge becomes known as an engram. This engram can be established in past lives, and continue into this one. It can always be broken without much trouble. Now one of the ways you can measure or yardstick a person’s problems is: The Dynamics of Life, or what you might call the Divisions of Life. They are Self, Sex, Group, Mankind:
Life, which means the flowers, plants minerals, animals, insects, fish, etc.; MEST, meaning matter, energy, space and time, or the Earth materials which are inorganic; World of spirit or forces, and the Supreme Being.
The tensions, conflicts, or introversions of an individual’s life can be on one dynamic, or all. For example, one can be introverted on Self, meaning that he is completely aberrated on Self, talks about himself, puts all attention on Self, lives only for himself. The Second Dynamic, Sex and Eighth Dynamic often go together, meaning that an individual may put the cause of his sex activities as the result of God’s will, or he is afraid of sex activities because he will be punished by God. This is one of the places where the Catholic Church enters into the individual’s life pointing out that sex is an activity which is personal, but encouraged by church in marriage to have children so the faith can have more followers. Opposite this is the factor the church frowns upon, condemns sex out of wedlock. Hence, the Second and Eighth Dynamic activities. At this moment I am somewhat stuck on the Fifth Dynamic because of my life with cats, etc.
These Dynamics are actually streams of spiritual forces playing across the life of the individual. When they are dammed, hindered or blocked, overstrained, or interfered with, trouble arises. As they inflow upon the individual passing through the electro-magnetic field around him ridges or barriers may be formed if hindered and out of them comes the engram.
Actually, the engram or the aberration is a picture filed away in the reactive bank (remember the letter on reactive bank, on images or pictures). They are electronic pictures, and to be rid of them one either explodes them or has somebody to explode them. These images are the cause of inner conflict in the individual. You may not even know what
might be bothering the individual until the original picture is pulled out of his file cabinet and looked at — and this looking at will dissolve or explode the image. But as long as the picture is inside, in the file cabinet, ready to be pulled out and gazed at inside the head (by the watcher or Jivatma, who does the looking at the image) and reaction sets in by looking at the picture, there will always be tension or inner conflict when certain things arise; and so many times the individual may never know what is wrong.
So many individuals are aberrated on the Eighth Dynamic, for they allow their lives to be forced into narrow channels of religion, overbalancing until they become fanatics in this field. Religion will create powerful dictators, if allowed, and groups can have aberrations on the same thing. Example: the South, as a whole, is still stuck on the same track of the old caste system of ante-bellum days—an aberration of the Third Dynamic; communism is an aberration of the Fourth Dynamic for China, Russia and The Russian bloc.
I hope that this isn’t confusing, but it’s a matter of trying to show you how inner conflicts work. It is apart of Depth Psychology, and none of Freudian psychology, which is actually the Second Dynamic, Sex, for he based everything he knew on sex to create his system of psychology.
Incidentally, he was, it is said, an impotent man, who was afraid of wide spaces like streets, etc. None of this is hard to understand.
More later.
Paul
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