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My  research  seems  suited  to  being  (re)presented  in  a  performative  forum  for  a  number   of   reasons:   my   participants   daily  doing,   displaying   and   performing   their   bodies;   their   preoccupation   with  looking   and  watching;   and   their   doing  of   identity   as   they   talked.   However,  I  am  motivated  to  explore  ethnodrama  for  four  other  reasons.  

First,   as   has   been   mentioned   with   respect   to   performative   social   science   generally,   an   ethnodrama   about   losing   weight   could   pointedly   challenge   long   held   beliefs   and   taken-­‐for-­‐granted   views   around   slimming,   health,   attractiveness,   and   success.  There  is  a  general  assumption  with  slimming  that  anyone  who  is  determined   enough   can   lose   weight,   and   keep   this   weightloss   off,   even   though   evidence   would   suggest   that   this   achievement   is   unusual   (Crawford   et   al.,   2000;   Elfhag   &   Rossner,   2005;  Jeffery  et  al.,  2000).  My  participants  too  believed  that  long-­‐term  weightloss  was   very   achievable.   At   times   they   even   revealed   a   quiet   intolerance,   or   impatience   with   women  who  had  failed,  where  they  themselves  had  succeeded.  

By  all  accounts,  losing  weight  and  successful  slimming  were  indeed  hard  fought.   It  required  considerable  effort  and  sacrifice,  despite  my  participants’  keenness  to  pass   off   their   practices   as   easy   and   effortless.   Suggestions   of   effortlessness   around   losing   weight  have  implications  for  women  who  struggle  with  their  weight  and  reinforces  the   view  that  women  who  are  fat  are  simply  unprepared  to  make  even  the  slightest  effort   to   lose   weight,   which,   as   research   has   shown,   is   not   the   case   (Ikeda,   Lyons,   Schwartzman,   &   Mitchell,   2004).   Notions   of   ease   and   effortless   endeavour   paint   a   distorted  picture  of  successful  weightloss,  which  in  reality,  is  very  difficult  to  achieve.   As   Crawford   et   al.  (2000)   point   out,   women   who   fail   at   losing   weight   do   not   need   intolerance  or  impatience;  they  deserve  empathy  and  understanding.  

An   idiom   of   painting   oneself   into   a   corner   is   a   helpful   analogy   here.   Imagine   a   woman   has   painted   herself   into   the   corner   of   a   room.   She   is   fat.   She   has   her   back   against   the   wall   and   cannot   escape   the   fat   body   that   encapsulates   her.   The   popular   perception  is  that  she  has  recklessly  inflicted  fatness  on  herself,  despite  helpful  advice   from  the  lucrative  food  and  weightloss,  health,  and  beauty  industries.  These  industries   are  the  pots  of  paint  she  dips  her  brush  into;  they  have  helped  her  paint  herself  into  the   corner.  Rather  than  become  yet  another  pot  of  paint  for  this  woman  to  dip  her  brush   into,  which  a  lot  of  weightloss  research  seems  to  be,  I  would  like  to  create  a  hole  in  the   wall  behind  the  woman  and  make  a  window  for  her  to  climb  out  of.  I  want  to  give  her,   and  the  audience,  something  different:  a  new  perspective.  I  believe  that  putting  fatness,   and  particularly  weightloss,  on  a  stage  will  be  a  breath  of  fresh  air  for  trapped  women   who   struggle   to   lose   weight   and   stay   slim.   It   will   provide   a   new   perspective   and  

 

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understanding  of  what  weightloss  involves,  and  how  very  difficult  it  is.  A  desire  to  help   women  who  struggle  with  their  weight  was  what  motivated  most  of  my  participants  to   take  part  in  this  research.  My  aim  is  to  find  an  effective  forum  to  reach  and  educate,  and  

change  long  held  beliefs  about  fatness,  weightloss  and  successful  slimming.  

The   second   reason   concerns   emotions   surrounding   obesity   and   weightloss.   By   focusing  on  disease  rather  than  the  person,  a  lot  of  research  on  health  issues  has  “back-­‐ staged   the   patient’s   experience”   (Morse,   2011,   p.   402).   Obesity   and   weight   are   constantly   in   the   media,   and   the   emotive   terms   like   alarm,   battle,   combat,   crisis,   epidemic,   explosion,   and   fight   are   frequently   used   and   are   not   innocuous   (O'Reilly   &   Sixsmith,  2012):  they  depict  a  war  zone  and  an  enemy  requiring  eradication.  Language   such   this   fuels   anti-­‐fat   rhetoric   and   discrimination,   and   an   inevitable   “war   on   fat   people”  (O'Hara  &  Gregg,  2012,  p.  41).  The  television  programme,  “The  Biggest  Loser”,   is  a  war  zone  where  fat  people  are  humiliated  and  abused:  they  are  fat  freaks  served  up   to  a  judgemental  audience.  

All  my  participants  talked  about  discrimination  and  abuse  that  they  experienced   when  they  were  fat,  and  how  much  it  affected  them  emotionally.  During  interviewing,  a   lot  of  emotional  pain  came  to  the  surface.  However,  the  intensity  of  these  emotions  was   less  noticeable  when  I  listened  to  the  recordings  of  interviews,  and  less  again  when  I   read  what  I  have  written  about  them.  In  its  textual  form,  my  participants’  pain  had  been  

diluted.  Written  words  can  keep  a  participant  and  her  emotions  at  a  distance:  they  fall   short  when  conveying  emotion.  I  suggest  that  a  better  forum  to  represent  the  intensity   of   my   participants’   emotions   is   to   see   them   embodied   in   an   ethnodrama.   The   very   visceral   experience   of   emotion   is   a   noted   feature   of   performative   social   science;   it   better   represents   passion   and   elicits   compassion.   It   makes   experience,   and   hence   emotion,  more  real  and  therefore  more  likely  to  make  an  impact  and  be  remembered.   Embodying  and  foregrounding  discrimination  and  stigma  will  help  separate  a  war  on   obesity  from  a  war  on  fat  people,  and  give  fatness  a  face.  

Thirdly,  with  participant  selection  criteria  focusing  only  on  long-­‐term  weightloss,   the  participants  who  took  part  in  this  project  were  all  very  different  from  one  another.   They   had   lost   different   amounts   of   weight,   had   maintained   their   weightloss   for   different  periods  of  time  and  currently  had  quite  different  BMIs.  Successful  weightloss   was  not  only  about  a  BMI  below  25,  or  even  more  stringently,  a  BMI  between  20  and   22.   These   differences   were   interesting   and   an   emphasis   on   diversity   was   important   particularly   with   respect   to   the   notion   of  health   at   every   size   (Bacon   &   Aphramor,   2011).   Two   participants,   Diana   and   Ismene,   were  proponents   of   this   position   without   being   aware   of   the   paradigm’s   existence.   Other   participants   like   Heidi   and   Charlotte   could  not  accept  that  anything  other  than  a  BMI  below  22  was  healthy  and  desirable.  

 

Also,  even  though  two  participants  may  have  had  similar  beliefs  with  respect  to  body   size   or   health,   their   views   and   practices   around   food   and   eating,   while   sometimes   similar,   were   also   quite   different   and   even   polarised.   This   was   also   the   case   for   individual   participants   themselves   too:   in   some   situations   they   were   relaxed   and   flexible,  but  in  others  they  were  stubbornly  rigid.  Equally,  while  some  practices  seemed   to   be   well   thought   out   and   rational,   others   appeared   entirely   based   on   whimsy   or   superstition,   and   in   some   cases   could   be   considered   extreme   or   even   bizarre.   These   multiple  layers  of  contradiction  and  difference  speak  to  the  complexity  of  weightloss.   While  discursive  analysis  draws  attention  to  difference  and  contradiction,  performative   writing,   especially   if   using   satire   and   humour   to   embellish   characterisation,   can   highlight  and  accentuate  difference  and  contradiction,  making  them  even  more  obvious   to   an   audience.   Hopefully,   this   will   help   douse   the   general   perception   that   successful   weightloss  is  simple:  a  trite  calories-­‐in  versus  energy-­‐out  equation.  

The   fourth   reason   has   grown   out   of   using   creative   methods   to   collect   research   data  about  everyday  experience.  Exploring  creativity  in  this  way  has  kindled  a  desire  to   look  at  nonconventional  forms  of  research  representation.  More  particularly,  I  wanted   to  find  out  if  performative  social  science  had  something  to  offer  research  about  fatness,   weightloss,   and   successful   slimming:   a   topic   as   yet   not   examined   using   ethnodrama.   Embarking  on  this  endeavour  is  no  mean  feat:  I  needed  to  become  a  playwright12.  Being  

a  road  less  travelled,  the  production  of  a  play  is  risky  for  a  piece  of  scholarly  work  such   as   this   thesis.   But   as   a   social   constructionist   I   would   agree   with   other   authors   (e.g.,   Denzin,   2010;   M.   Gergen   &   Gergen,   2011;   Richardson,   1997),   who   argue   that   no   one   mode  or  method  of  (re)presentation  is  privileged  or  more  authoritative  than  any  other   method.   The   methods   I   have   chosen   suit   my   research   questions   and   agenda.   I   also   suggest  that  my  close  involvement  with  my  participants;  familiarisation  with  the  data;   knowledge  of  the  literature;  my  participants  wish  to  help  other  women;  and  a  desire  to   explore  the  value  of  performative  social  science,  all  provide  a  rationale  for  my  analysis   and   how   my   findings   are   represented.   I   will   now   discuss   how   the   setting,   characters,   and  dialogue  for  the  play  were  created  and  developed.  

         

 

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