Being an engineer, Don insisted on an elaborate LPS for our home and did all the research, phone calls, and planning to get it completed. He also had it inspected on a regular basis. This was entirely his project.
Since the LPS appears to be the main source of his illness on the physical level, did he unconsciously set up the LPS to complete the process that he began mentally as a young adult? Was there a cancer gene in his DNA which somehow orchestrated this process? Did this begin as a fear because his family members were all dying from cancer at a relatively young age? Did he do this because that gave him some input/control over his death? Did he do this to set us up so that we could learn from these experiences, so that I would go on to do the type of work that I am doing, and also to help me regain my health in that process?
Was all this part of his blueprint, part of our mission, this lifetime?
No wonder he was applauding the day Warner, our godson, and I were
on the roof tearing down the LPS, while Rose was directing us and giving us his feedback!
Maybe all of these played their own role. Years later I remembered that the skier who “knocked down” Don worked in a nuclear power plant = radiation. What “knocked down” both of us was the energies from our house = radiation. Was this another, albeit very subtle, message? We were too busy to “see it” then? Maybe we were not supposed to see it. If we had “fixed” the house, that would have changed our destiny. This was part of what we came to do — our mission. While writing this I started crying. I know that this is a way for my body to tell me that it is the truth. It shows me how deeply something affects me, and is also a release of that stored up emotion.
Still, this leaves many unanswered questions — especially how large a part our unconscious thoughts play in directing our entire lives.
Were Don’s seizures in his throat and neck area (instead of other areas) because of all the years of a cancer frequency being connected to that area? That’s similar to my twitching and jerking caused by the toxins in my system. Was this cancer frequency responsible for the production and accumulation of scavenger toxins that might have furthered the actual manifestation of cancer itself? Did this cancer frequency accumulate and was some sort of energy stored in this area?
Were the seizures a release of this stored energy — in an attempt to cleanse? If he had “voiced” these fears, would that have released these toxins from the TC? Could that voicing have eliminated his seizures, or even his cancer — if that was meant to be? And would that “cleared”
TC have allowed the kundalini to travel up the sushumna channel — and into the head area to supply the necessary energy that could have transmuted the toxins in his brain that caused the formation of the tumors? There are still many questions not answered.
But I was arriving at an explanation of why his cancer originated in the kidney. First, the kidney and bladder are related to the sacral chakra, which is also the emotional center (the astral plane). In the
acupuncture system, an emotion is related to each pair of organs. The kidney (and its paired organ, the bladder) are related to fear.
Also, could his prematurely aged skin at his neck and throat area have been a reflection of the “unvoiced” long-term fear frequency that was constantly a part of his TC? He suspected it was from his long-term sun exposure from flying. This is a very clear example that we can unconsciously attract what we fear.
Having done this testing on Don, I decided to go back to November 1996, when my symptoms began, in order to get a clearer picture of the core causes of my illness.
I found my core also to be radiation, but from Curry grid, with DG also showing. I found no vibration of cancer in the front or back.
Grief was also still showing. Testing the back showed my TC also weak as well as the base chakra (BC), both to an emotional trauma. I also went back in time to see when the back of my throat chakra and base chakra became weak. This also was 1952, the same year that Don’s fear of cancer began. It was during my childhood while living in California. Don was also living in California at that time, a young officer in the Marine Corps.
I don’t believe this timing is a coincidence!
When I first started testing myself, I went back to December 1996, with the core being double grid. Since I had moved from my bedroom to the office area in December, I decided to go back to November 1996. The testing was different, which told me that the bedroom area was very toxic — from the DG, CG, the LPS and its downlead, and the vortex.
Secondly, the testing of my back revealed that I was testing for much of Don’s symptoms — just as Rose had indicated very early in our work. THE left kidney (whosever it was) was weak, with several core factors — radiation and the LPS. Even the seizures showed, but not any cancer frequency.
For a long time I suspected that maybe Don took “the hit” for me about the house. I had been sick in that house for a long time. It began soon after we moved in. At first, I thought it was from all of my cleansing, such as replacing all of my mercury fillings. I did recognize how much better I was while in Colorado skiing. Neither I nor anyone else could ever figure out the core of my illness, until Rose floated into my life.
After Don became sick and wasn’t making any permanent progress, even with the best healing methods he could receive, we began to look more closely at the house. He even stated that his becoming ill may be happening so that we could figure out why I had been ill.
That was one of the results of his illness — I did figure out (with Rose’s help) what the many problems were. I was also able to discover how to “fix” all of them. It has been a blessing to have regained enough strength and desire (thank you again, Rose) to be able to try to help others, in a much easier way than what Don experienced.
The Energems were created as a result of what Don and I experienced while living in our home in Virginia. This was part of what we came to do — our mission.
The Energems are a way for me to make sense and something useful out of what we experienced and learned together, so that others can benefit. I formed my own company — Energetics International, Inc. (EII) — to produce and distribute the Energems — Energized Gems. Now my primary focus is on my work — my mission.
During the first year that Rose and I worked together, Don was almost always “present,” but usually remained silent. At one point when I asked about him, he told Rose that he was living on the astral plane since that is the closest to the earth dimension and to me. He was still watching out for me. Months later he was showing Rose all of his uncompleted work files that he hadn’t been able to work on because he was watching over me!
At another time, Rose also said that Don didn’t want her to forget to tell me that he’s here too. “Don has a good sense of humor. I’ve never seen him so happy. He’s so thrilled — what he needed to do — making the connection between us that was able to help you. He’s watching out after you still.” It was always good to hear about Don — especially that he was doing so well and that we still had that strong connection. He is taking credit for getting Rose and me together — I always thought Dr. B. did that!
One Sunday morning I woke up about 4 a.m. crying very deeply and feeling very sad. I felt as though I was letting go of Don again. He had died on a Sunday and now again I was experiencing this “letting go” on a Sunday. I had just had a dream about someone dying and leaving several other people behind. I also remembered the two birds that we used to watch in Germany. My thought was that I was about at the end of my cleansing and getting stronger. It was now time for Don to move on past the astral plane, and it was also time for me to move forward.
I called Rose and she confirmed my suspicions. “Don had to move on to the other plane.” And then he bridged in saying, “I’m up here — you’re going to find me up here.” Rose continued, “He knew you were ready. Remember, he said that he could only stay there as long as you had to work out certain things.” She went on to explain that Don and I had the true bridge through the soul consciousness, which is in the pure planes. “That’s where your reality resides. The others are illusional.
You’re actually bridging to the true Don and the true you where the core of it is the real true bridge.” But I still miss him not being here!
I had had a dream a week before this happened that I interpreted as Don shedding his physical body, and I wanted to also but knew that I had something else to finish first. I now know that this was a sign of what was to happen — that it was his astral body, not his physical body that he was shedding, and that’s what I felt so deeply on that morning.
I was very surprised at how strong the feeling of the sadness was.
I guess I had been more aware of him being around me than I had realized, even if he was on the astral plane. I should have been happy that he was going on, but all I could feel then was my sadness. All I knew was that reality sometimes sucks. To me it felt like I had to let him go again. I went back to bed for the rest of the day.
Towards the end of some major process work that Rose and I did, Don communicated to us. Rose said: “It’s funny — you know what Don is doing? He has this book and he just closed the back of the book. Now he’s showing me another book that has a golden cover and now he’s opening that book.” Does it have a title to it, I asked? “No.
There is something written there but I can’t see it. It’s too sacred.”
“How are you doing?” Rose asked. I’m doing fine. We closed the book. “Now you open the golden book.” That sounds a lot better.
spiritual life. The painting reflects our ability to open and blossom like the lotus flower as we evolve from our base chakra and rise up the sushumna stem to each higher chakra into our true unfolding and enlightenment at the crown center, our seventh chakra.
Chakras are also referred to as lotuses, both capable of unfolding to fully blossom. According to Eastern religions the lotus flower emerges upward from the sometimes murky water just as we can choose a path where we emerge from the more physical state of our base chakra. Then we may raise the stem of our sushumna through each evolving chakra, being guided to the light — our spiritual illumination
— to rise and evolve into enlightenment at the crown chakra
— our thousand-pedaled blossom.