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I understand I don’t have to take part if I don’t want to
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3. I understand my tapes will be kept safe
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4. I am happy for staff to listen to my tapes
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Appendix K: Transcript 1
This is a transcript of a therapy session. The problematic experience being worked on in therapy is: disruptive behaviour at home – hitting his mother, staying up all night, talking all the time/repetitive questioning. He was admitted to hospital to give his parents a break.
Please read the transcript and complete a Therapist Assimilation Measure – ID for this session. Thank you.
John: I had a nightmare. I dreamt about going back into hospital. Started with an ambulance arriving at my house. They wanted Murdoch but they took me instead. They put me in there. There is a nurse there, and two nude men were getting ready to go to bed – unattractive men – like other patients at the hospital who are a bit mad. Nurse said: “What are you two ding with no clothes on? Get to bed”. Then it was the next day and they took me by ambulance to our old house and they let me out because they hadn’t got Murdoch. Then a car came. It was like true to life. They came in the house and went off again.
T: How were you feeling when they brought you into the hospital? John: All right – there must be some reason for bringing me to hospital. T: You said it was a nightmare, but that it was alright.
John: It was a shock to me.
T: You fear being admitted to hospital again. John: Yeah.
T: You don’t feel as well as you think you should. John: In what way?
T: You feel you are going mad.
John: No. I’ve not gone mad, but I have got a different sense of humour – we have all got a different sense of humour.
T: You are not feeling very safe at the moment. John: That’s true.
T: You feel your Mum wants rid of you.
John: That’s true – it’s her anniversary today with stepfather. T: He wants rid of you too.
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T: These feelings that your mum wants rid of you – that must be very painful.
John: Yeah. What were those two nude men? Not getting dressed. What does that mean.
T: Is that something you have seen before? John: Yeah.
T: On a ward?
John: No, with Andrew and David [two boys who had sex with John when he was a child].
T: So Andrew and David are popping into your dreams? John: Yeah – as different people in different positions.
T: When you came on to the ward and saw them did you think they were Andrew and David?
John: They didn’t look like them.
T: They made you think of Andrew and David. John: Yeah – their nudeness.
T: You felt sexually attracted towards them. John: Might have done.
T: So you say that they were unattractive but had some sexual feelings towards there.
John: They reminded me of Andrew and David in the nude.
T: Andrew and David still make you feel excited but at the same time you feel guilt and shame.
John: Yeah. It’s 10.30 now. T: You want to end
John: No, we’ve got something else now. [Speech becomes very rushed]. I’ve still got sexual feelings and have dreams about having it off with men and boys. Will it go away?!
T: You want it to go away? John: If you can get rid of it.
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T: You think that I have the power to get rid of it?
John: No, not really. I have two sexual feelings, one to men and one to women. You make the decision of which one to have.
T: You feel you can’t have both.
John: No, I have to have one or the other. I feel I might make the wrong choice. T: You must feel very confused,.
John: Yeah. T: Lonely.
John: Yes, lonely. No sexual partner. T: You want a partner
John: I have tried many ways of getting a partner, I go to a club, church, to see if I can get a girlfriend.
T: So you want a girlfriend. John: Yeah.
T: but you also like boys.
John: I look at boys and wish I was younger. T: You wish you were still mummy’s little boy. John: I wish I wasn’t ageing so much.
T: You would like to feel that your mum still wanted you at home.
John: [Angry] I wish I had a better education and life. I wish I was born in the future and all this being me wouldn’t have happened. This is not the right tie period for me. There is nothing for me on this planet.
T: You feel you don’t belong. John: I am far ahead of everybody.
We’d better stop now. Can I go and get a cup of coffee? T: You want to stop.
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Appendix L: Transcript 2
This is a transcript of a therapy session. The presenting issues are anxiety and depression with a history of anger management difficulties. The problematic experience being worked on is how the client is coping with his current responsibilities/relationships (e.g. management of finances, care of step children) after the death of his mother and in connection to his disability.
Please read the transcript and complete a Therapist Assimilation Measure – ID. Thank you.
123 T = Therapist
C = Client
T Yeah so where did you want to start with talking about what was on your mind?
C Yesterday I suppose (SIGH) I just want to, I just got a bit, I don't know depressed I suppose err, I get uptight about and I don't know, I don't know what happened, I were all reyt erm only yesterday morning we went shopping and that err and then I come home and I just (SIGH) just flipped out.
T You just flipped out?
C I just flipped out, I went off on one a bit, not, not err, not too much I just ..