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The first duty of man [The Black Magician] is to conquer fear; he must get rid of it, he cannot act until then. - Thomas Carlyle
Introduction
Fear of anything will bring the articulate Black Magician into a realm of Powerlessness.
When the idea of the Anthology was brought to me, I immediately became humbled. The darker aspect that roared within my core was brought to its knees. The proj ect seemed so simple, but the underlining of wh at was truly happening was astonishing. Here were a group of well-established magicians of all sects gathering together to lay out information to any and all who will hear.
My mind was scarcely grasping the seriousness of this endeavor. If such a thing were to have
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As a new author I began going through my own little writing process, hell-bent on research and practical application. I dug through old journals and personal grimoires, finding notes linking to one another sloppily with arrows and markings to make connection with other ideas and paragraphs. As I slowed my intellectual immersion within my studies, I thought to myself, "How many of us take the time to stop and observe our life in its entirety?" What was my part in the grand scheme of things; how did I fit into the puzzle? At the transcendence of this life into the next what would I leave behind? How was my e x i s t e n c e a n d t h e e x p e r i e n c e o f t h e G r a n d Consciousness experiencing itself subjectively?
My mind was clouded with too many questions and not enough answers, so I meditated on everything by experiencing nothing. I saw my life as it was, is or ever will be. I saw how important "I" am on the grand scheme, and yet I was not needed. This mere observation granted me full access of my being. I could see all, hear all and travel anywhere I pleased.
A new vision was given to me that day, the Vision of Suspension. This is the ability to travel within the grand scheme of Supreme Consciousness to make any
"necessary" changes, and yet no changes at all. The speed of the spiritual travel left my mind to become free. Free of man's laws and my own. Freedom from
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the Consciousness Itself, when reality and Illusion are one in the same.
I awoke with no real answers. I simply understood that all would come in time. Bringing oneself back from a world where time does not exist, can be frustrating to say the least, however patience was needed. My body needed to recuperate from a deep immersion of the realm of Necromancy. I found myself healing rather quickly, and the lion in the heart got rest. I focused on nothing during this time period.
I observed. What I did not anticipate was the reaction from my action of suspension.
On a day like every other day, I meditated to bring myself into a calm, breathing deeply, slowly. My mind faded into the background and I became aware of my existence. After my observation, I briefly brought myself back into the very thing I was observing. A massive light blinded me, and threw me out of my trance. Snapping back into your body in any normal circumstance can bring you minor to severe spiritual whiplash, however this was not a
"usual" circumstance, but a gateway of intense knowledge gathering in one vocal point, me.
The brilliance of the light broke all focus I would generally have. My body was dripping and covered in sweat. I reached for my eyes trying to shield the light. The intensity of it had me crawling and pacing in circles. There was no shielding this light. My eyesight was to remain blinded, however the
"Black Magician's Mentality" wouldn't let me give in that easy. I fought with every inch of my power, and in doing so I attempted to gain further knowledge of
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DANTE ABIEL feeling the liquid traveling down my wrist. I brought the mysterious fluid to my mouth. Copper was the first thing to come to my mind, but it couldn't be. It was blood ! My eyes were wet, and what I thought were tears flowing from my Nasolacrimal ducts turned out to be blood. The taste assured me ! Fear was creeping slowly. I was now deaf and blind, trying to find my way in a world of Illumination.
My sense of smell shortly failed after my inside my head, slowly creeping out and closer to me.
The light overcame all of my senses, making me experience it in every possible way. The uniqueness of the relationship was extraordinary.
There was an intimacy and bond with the light that granted me a fire of aspirations. All the answers I wanted to know came to me. Paths were laid out in a clear, precise manner. I no longer had questions but the answers to them, and more importantly, how to achieve any goals in my life. The light and I merged in a beautiful synchronicity. Many practitioners of all practices came to me for directions and what they needed in their personal paths, I gladly gave them the way. I directed them to their destination. Whether
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their destination was to end in total annihilation or complete convergence didn't matter. I only showed them "how" to ascend. I understood I was to illuminate any who come to me.
I didn't acknowledge my beauty, knowledge or wisdom. I resonated with peace, love and power, but I still desired more. My personal ambitions were being fulfilled through others. An empire willing to bleed for its King was at my disposal. There were a few who misunderstood what the meaning of this was ; moreover that is why they were not in His/My position of leadership. The Emperor serves his empire and they serve Him.
The light dimmed and the answer of all my questions came with one name, Lucifer. The light resonance and divine illumination were quite familiar to me, however this experience surpassed any previous understandings of Lucifer I had at that time.
I knew what I had to claim in the market place of today's technology and its high-tech method of distributing information for all to hear.
The reaction to my suspension caused a dour strike in all worlds both within and without myself.
When I grasp reality as I do today, I find myself falling into acts and motions that are already laid out for me to take. Destiny can be altered and manipulated as the Black Magician sees fit, but Fate is one's birthright. Through Lucifer I gained the information and knowhow to manipulate my personal destiny to match my birthright or Fate . All paths and dimensions are now parallel. I will play my part and do what is needed, but when time comes, I will rise within my Empire, embracing the gift of the Black
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Spider; which is to connect all empires with spiritual webs. The Empire stands firm and moves on my devotion to it.
My past workings with Lucifer have always given me personal illumination in one-way or another.
In time, I found my life come to proper order from physical health to deep spiritual truths. Debts were cleared and money was made. The connections made with others became evermore intimate. Pacts and bonds were forged in the everlasting, Infernal Hierarchy. I found something worthy of my reach, and I drove toward my aspirations. All of these accomplishments were shown to me through the Divine Illumination and possession of Lucifer.