"Nic, can we talk?" I sigh and sit down next to him on the bench outside the school at break time.
"Sure, what is it babe?" He asked as he held my hand.
"Um, I think....I like you Khun but this isn't working. Is it?" I didn't want to look into his eyes.
"What do you mean?" I heard his voice deepen, something he did when he was tense.
"I don't think you and I are meant to be together Nic. And I think you know it too, so I think it's best we end it here."
There was silence as he took that in, it was very awkward. I saw him make some distance between us before sighing, getting up and walking away. I held my head in my hands and I felt my heart hurt for him. Nevertheless, it was done now so I grabbed a snack from the vending machine and ate it quickly before making my way to Taeyeon's class.
I saw Nic was already in his seat, his head in his hands so I looked away, I didn't like to see him hurt. I sat down beside him, took out my books and waited for Taeyeon to come in.
"Who is he?" I heard him ask, looking at my side profile.
"Who?" I replied, I knew what he meant but of course I was going to play dumb.
"This piece of shit who you've fallen for? Or Is it Jessica?"
"I haven't fallen for anyone Nichkhun, I just don't think this relationship is going anywhere special. I care for you, but I don't love you. You don't love me..."
Taeyeon walked in and immediately sensed the tense atmosphere.
"Good afternoon guys" she glanced at me and I guessed she could see me becoming uncomfortable under Nichkhun's glare. "Partner work. I have some worksheets here so work through them for me please, thanks" she said and gave worksheets out to everyone except me. I got up and went to sit beside her and could sense her looking at me questionably but I was still so aware of Nichkhun's gaze on me also.
"Nichkhun, get with your partner please" Taeyeon said.
He actually listened and went to sit with Siwon at the back. I heard him scrape his chair back and just do every action with anger, slamming his paper down on the table, throwing his pen on the table....this wasn't going to end well.
"You may listen to music" Taeyeon turned to me once everyone including Nic put their earphones on and again she looked at me with that questioning look.
I had the slight feeling he may be listening and he knew decent English so I texted her.
-I broke up with him- I heard her sigh beside me
-I'm guessing he didn't take it too
well?-
-Nope-Once I sent that, Taeyeon could see my mood had been affected so we just got on with my work and didn't talk about it.
Soon there was ten minutes left and so I packed up my bag ready only for Nichkhun to walk up to Taeyeon's desk.
"Can I talk to you?" He asked me. I nodded and he took me outside, Taeyeon's door was ajar so she would hear every word. "So if its not Jessica who is it?"
"It's not anyone Nichkhun, seriously why does it have to involve another person? I don't want to string you along when I don't have feelings like that for you"
"I really like you Tiffany and I thought you really liked me. We made love and I'm sorry but I assumed that meant you loved me"
I hung my head low knowing Taeyeon would have heard that. "No Nic, I don't" I said before leaving him to enter Taeyeon's class to pack up the rest of my bag. He followed me though.
"I'm not standing for this Tiffany." He said, his voice stern.
"Standing for what Nic? It's a break up, you have to"
"No, I don't. We're going back to yours, now come" he ordered and grabbed my wrist tight.
"Nichkhun let go, you're hurting me" I frowned.
Taeyeon walked over immediately
"Nichkhun let her go please. If you need to sort things out, sort them out here but release her" she said calmly.
"I'm not letting you break up with me" he said simply as if I would forget all about it and agree to his demand.
"You've got to" I raised my voice a little and he didn't take to it kindly.
He started towards me and I backed off, Taeyeon tried to stop him but he was strong. I could see she was panicking a little by the way she tried to put herself in between us and by the way she kept her eyes on his but....he wasn't looking at her.
Soon I was up against the wall and he had either arm each side of me, trapping me
between them. He brought his hand up to caress my face and I turned away, he always thought force was the answer.
"Nichkhun let her go, come on" Taeyeon said, tugging on his shirt but he just pushed her away.
"What's wrong with me huh?" He sneered.
"This Nichkhun! Do you not realise you're scaring me right now? Do you not realise that you force yourself on me every time we kiss? I don't want it and you frighten me" I shouted.
"Because forcing you is the only way I get it Tiffany. If we had it your way all this time you would still be a fucking virgin" he argued back. "Just let me kiss you and you'll fall for me again"
He grabbed my jaw, pulled my face towards him and connected our lips. I squirmed and looked to Taeyeon who was trying to pull him off but failing. She was shouting at him and threatening him with expulsion but he wouldn't stop, her eyes looked into mine full of worry. He was rough and his hands began to wander, squeezing my breasts and with his other hand he grabbed and held my wrists together above my head. He was trying to make me feel something I would never feel for him, lust.
My muffled pleas fell on deaf ears and I looked to see Taeyeon had gone, I started to panic but then she ran back in with Miss Lee and a male teacher who quickly ripped him off me leaving me to slide down the wall to the floor. Taeyeon soon
knelt down to pull me into a hug. All I wanted to do was dig my nails into her back and tug on her shirt while I cried but I was aware that we weren't alone.
"Nichkhun...." I heard Miss Lee say sternly. I knew what she was going to say
"No don't" I cried, aware of how Taeyeon was looking at me shocked and confused. "Don't expel him, it's fine. It's between us"
"Tiffany this is sexual assault" Miss Lee said.
"He's my boyfriend and we got a little too into it" I cringed when I said that and I know I had angered Taeyeon again when she immediately let go of me and stood up before stepping away from me.
She was probably angry that I was defending him, but I didn't want him to be expelled, he was just scared to lose me but eventually he'll get over it.
He looked down at me and I saw Taeyeon glare right back at him, he then offered me a hand to get up so I accepted. Looking in his eyes I saw he felt dreadful about how he had scared me. I gave him a kiss on the cheek to say he was forgiven. I saw Miss Lee give a sign to the teacher to take him out of the classroom for a minute so it was only me, her and Taeyeon.
"Tiffany, are you sure you're telling me the truth?" Miss Lee asked. "Because from what I saw he was assaulting you"
"No, like I said we...." urgh forgive me Taeyeon "We hadn't seen each other in a while and we both got excited about him coming to my house later..."
Miss Lee looked at me with concern but I think she eventually bought my story. I didn't even dare to look at Taeyeon.
Miss Lee then approached and gave me a hug "You know you can talk to me about anything right?" She asked and I nodded, it seemed she wasn't the dragon most people made her out to be. She let me go home and Taeyeon text that she'd be over when she finished work so there was no suspicion. I text her back to say 'okay' and then drove home. I was nervous about what was going to be said, very nervous.
Ultimatum
I opened the door slightly when she knocked and as soon as I opened it I was met with a hard stare. I sighed and opened the door wider for her to enter and she walked past me, the chill of her exterior giving me goose pimples.
"Why did you do that?" Taeyeon asked in a cold tone, now turned around with her arms folded.
"This is the last year Taeyeon, he can't be expelled. He's working hard here to get the job he wants and.."
"He could have raped you Tiffany"
"He wouldn't have" I replied. Maybe I was in denial but I hoped he wouldn't have.
I watched as she bit her lip, but not in the sexy way...out of anger and probably trying to hold back from shouting at me. She was pacing up and down stressed to hell so I thought I'd try something.
"Can I please have a hug" I said with a sad voice while looking at the ground. She sighed and accepted my request immediately engulfing me in a tight hug, I felt better instantly.
"I'm not happy with you, he's gonna think you're gonna take him back babe" she sighed
"No he's..."
"I'm sorry" she interrupted, her words muffled against my shoulder.
"What on earth are you sorry for?" I asked confused.
"I tried to help you, but he was really strong and..."
I cut her off with a short kiss. When I pulled away her eyes showed shock and lust at the same time if that was even possible.
"It's not your fault Taeyeon"
"It is, if I hadn't have gotten jealous then..."
Again I cut her off and walked towards the wall trapping her against it. I caressed her hips and felt her rapid heartbeat against my chest as we were pressed together.
I felt her emotions through the kiss and I was sure she felt mine also. Her hands pulled me closer even though it wasn't possible and scratched her nails down my back.
Lips still connected, I led her to the sofa once again and we continued there. I heard her moan when she felt my tongue in her mouth and she gently began to suck it a little making a jolt go straight to my clit. It was now painful and it was bugging me so I rubbed against her once and heard her gasp.
I took her hands in mine, interlocked our fingers and pinned them either side of her head. She groaned and pulled against my hold on her to touch me but I wouldn't allow it so in frustration she nibbled my lip and tugged making me shiver, god she's good.
I pulled away and looked down on her, she was so fucking beautiful and I was so lucky to have her yet I didn't have her at all and this is what bugged me.
She leaned up to take my lips again but I moved out of reach, she tried again but once more I leaned away. She flopped down on the sofa and tried to pull her wrists away, annoyed at my teasing but I had something to say.
"Taeyeon, I broke up with him so we can be together with no guilt hanging over me, I want to be yours" I sighed, looking away from her eyes.
"Tiff...it's hard..."
"How would you being my girlfriend make any difference Tae? We don't have to go further just because we put a name to our relationship...I'm not going to get all possessive and jealous over everyone you talk to just because I can call you my girlfriend. But this...what we're doing, we're nothing better than friends with benefits which is shit because I fucking care for you and respect you more than that. But maybe you don't want to be mine so I guess...."
She leaned up with all her strength and bit my lower lip, dragging me back down since she didn't have the use of her hands. She kissed me but I was still worrying about what I had just said so I pulled out of reach again only for her to sigh.
"Tiffany, I really like you and I would love nothing more than to be your girlfriend..."
She shifted underneath me, maybe uncomfortable but I wasn't letting her go, we needed to talk about this and seeing her pacing up and down wasn't going to reassure me.
"Then what?" I asked.
"I think that it'll be harder for us if we put a label to what we have together...." She wasn't making any fucking sense and I was beginning to get angry.
"Well, maybe we should just stop then" I said, finally letting her wrists go and getting up off the sofa.
"Stop?"
"Stop this arrangement, like I said....I'm not happy being just a friend that you make out with. So either we are together or we're not."
I gave an ultimatum and then told her to leave, that's fair right?
...
The next day at school, I had a tutoring session with her so wanted to know her answer. I sped through my classes hit didn't see her at lunch. I didn't bother going to see her so I just waited until our class together.
When she walked in, she looked strange. She refused to look me in the eye most of the time and when she did she immediately looked away. I pulled out my phone, hiding it beneath my desk and texted her.
-I guess I know my
answer-I put my phone away trying to hold back my tears and ignored her when she brought our work around. When I was busy working, I glanced up and saw her sitting down at her desk and checking her phone. I saw her frown and so I immediately looked back to my work
A vibration in my pocket took me out of my daze so I pulled out my phone and checked the message from her.
-I'm coming over later- it said
-No you're not, my dad comes home today- I replied, still not looking up at her.
-Well can I take you
out?-I thought for a while but decided not to text back. out?-I sensed her watching me as out?-I put my phone away and I heard her sigh. Don't do that.
After class, I stayed in my seat and once all the students left, she came and moved a seat to the front of my desk.
"Well?" She asked
I looked to her confused
"What's the answer to my text?"
"I don't think that's a good idea." I sighed
"I can answer your question"
"You've already answered it Taeyeon, I'm not blind and I don't really wanna hear the answer out loud thanks"
"Please"
I looked up to her and saw a sad smile. I fought the urge to hug her and looked away, but finally nodded my head.
"Can we go now?" She asked.
"My car is here, I'll drive home and then you can pick me up" I answered
"Alright."