We didn't end up having a tutoring session, she was still upset about something so I cancelled it and told her to go home. I just hope she turns up today or I don't know what I'll do. I also have to stay on Nichkhun's good side...don't ask why, I just feel I need him.
My car wouldn't fucking start again though, time to take it to the garage again. But I'd have to do so after school. I called Jessica to give me a lift and thankfully she hadn't left yet so told me she'd come pick me up right away.
"Why was she crying?" She asked as she stopped at a red light.
"I don't know, I really have no idea. At one point she was trying to stop the fight, then she ran out crying."
"Hm" Jess thought for a moment "She's an odd one, very hard to work out"
"I know." I didn't know whether to tell her this but "Jess....I've been dreaming about her and I think if something doesn't happen soon I'm gonna go crazy" I
admitted, it was true. Every night I had been waking up sweating after dreaming of me and her being....intimate.
"God Tiff, you're in deep" Jess sighed. Yes, yes I know.
The rest of the ride was quiet. When we got out, we said our goodbyes and I started
classes. I had Taeyeon at the end of the day with a tutoring session afterwards so that's all I looked forward to.
Each class droned on and on and I could hardly keep my eyes open. All that was keeping me awake was the thought of being with her and talking to her about what was wrong yesterday.
Lunch time approached, I sat down beside Jessica and looked around for my favourite teacher. I soon saw her and she glanced at my table. Before I could stop myself, I waved. Stupid Tiffany, stupid.
But she only went and waved back. Fuck yes! I turned to Jessica to celebrate but she wasn't paying attention. I looked back to Taeyeon to see her turn back around and then Nichkhun sat down. He gave me a peck on the lips and ruined my view of Taeyeon with his face.
"Are you busy tonight Tiff?"
"Yeah, I need to clean the house ready for my dad to come home soon" I sighed.
"Ah okay, no worries" he smiled. Okay who was he and what had he done with Nichkhun?
"I gotta go, I love you Tiffany" he smiled and kissed me before getting up.
I smiled and looked randomly to my right to see Taeyeon standing in front of the cutlery station near our table, but she wasn't moving. As soon as Khun left the table to go sit with his guy friends she frowned, bit her lip and dumped her tray full of uneaten food in the trash before leaving in a hurry.
Yeah I needed to find out what was wrong with her ASAP so I got up, said bye to Jess, bought a couple of sandwiches and some gummy sweets and followed her out the door.
I guessed she was going to her classroom so I approached the closed door and peeked through the glass window.
I saw her in her chair, head resting on her desk. I took a deep breath and knocked before entering.
"Hi" I smiled and she brought her head up.
"Hi, what are you doing here?" She asked surprised.
"Jess was being a stalker again and said she saw you leave looking sad so I figured I'd come see if you were okay" sorry Jess but I can't have her know my feelings, not yet.
"I'm fine Tiffany" she gave me a really fake smile which would reassure nobody.
I rolled my eyes and sat down opposite her desk. I then opened my bag and handed her a sandwich, she gave me a weird look.
"She said you threw away your food" I shrugged, hoping I wasn't being obvious.
"Should I be concerned about Jessica?" Taeyeon chuckled but opened the sandwich anyway and took a bite.
"Umm...maybe yeah. She has psychotic issues...."
I noticed Taeyeon stopped eating and her eyes had grown wide. I burst out laughing and she rolled her eyes in response.
"Very funny"
"I thought it was" I said as I poked my tongue in my cheek, teasing her.
She smiled "Thanks for this" she said holding up her sandwich.
"Not a problem." Just when I was about to ask why she was upset she asked me a question.
"How's your relationship? That fight was pretty intense"
She wanted to talk about Khun? I want to talk about you!
"Uh, we're okay. He scared me a little, he can be quite violent when he's angry."
"I think he scared most the class. God if he had hurt y...." She immediately stopped what she was saying, looked up at me and bit her lip. "If he had hurt...anyone then he would've been suspended or even expelled, I hope he knows that"
"I'm sure he does. He gets so jealous over everything, I mean you heard him....Jess is my best friend and he thinks we're having some lesbian love affair like...come on" I scoffed
"Yeah...." She said rather awkwardly.
Okay...wasn't expecting that reaction, awkward silence much...
"Hey um, if you ever need to talk or rant to someone...I hope you know you can come to me right?" She asked, a shy smile on her face.
"Aw really? Thanks I'd appreciate it. I'm actually having a lot of problems right now" I said with a laugh which died down when I saw her grab a piece of paper and start writing on it. When she was done she handed it to me. "Whose number is this?"
"It's mine. If you need to talk about your problems out of school, don't hesitate to call or text me."
Okay, am I dreaming? Do I really have Kim Taeyeon's number in my hand?
"Wow, thank you. It means a lot" I gave an eyesmile and she smiled right back.
"I'll ring you now so you'll have mine too. You know, just in case I text and you think it's some creeper." She laughed at that.
"Like Jessica" she sniggered, man she was cute.
"Like Jessica" I agreed. I took out my phone and saved the number under Taeyeon and I was so tempted to put a heart next to her name but that was suicidal. I phoned her and she took her vibrating phone out and saved my number too. We had
fucking swapped numbers.
"Alright. I think it's best you finish your lunch Tiffany before class starts. Thank you for coming to keep me company" Taeyeon said before winking, hell yes.
"No problem, see you soon" I winked right back. That's right, I'm flirting with you.
Texting
That day...wow it was still surreal to me. Right now I was lying in bed staring at her number on my phone. I really wanted to text her but what the hell would I say?
It was frustrating to be so near yet so far. I knew she felt something but whether it was just platonic friendship or what I wanted (romantic feelings), I guess I'd never know.
Yesterday's tutoring went okay, I think she was reluctant to talk to me properly after I saw her put her guard down, maybe it embarrassed her... I don't know. But I hoped that she would open up to me at some point.
Hi, are you okay now?- I can't send that can i?
You're so sexy- ha nice one
Hmmm, what can I text her? As if by magic I got a text, and it was her. I swear my heart skipped a beat and my jaw would become unhinged if it dropped any lower.
My thumb hesitated to press the 'open' button but I took a deep breath and pushed it.
-Hi Tiffany, it's Taeyeon. Just wondering if everything is okay now and the homework I gave you isn't causing too much
trouble?-Oh my fucking god if I were to die now from a heart attack I'd die happy. She text
me, pinch me I must be dreaming!
Ow, nope not dreaming. What do I write back? I didn't want to be too eager yet I didn't want to be too careful either...
-Hey, how are you? I'm okay, no more fights as of yet ^^
Yeah the homework is fine, I've done it already
-I pressed send and watched it until -I saw the tick next to it indicating it had been sent. If this phone was a person, it probably would have died because I was squeezing the life out of it in anticipation. -1 new
message--I'm fine thanks.
Aw damn, I was hoping for some drama!
Wow you nerd
;)-I think ;)-I just died. She gave me a winky face oh my god!
-Yah! I was right, you are a bully >.<- I clicked send and waited, it seemed she was waiting for me too because I got a reply almost immediately.
-Nono, you just insinuated that...and you laugh at me too so don't play the
victim!-I smiled, she's adorable.
-Yeah yeah
-_-Well I gotta go get ready so see you later...teach!- Ha! That should piss her off.
I put my phone on the side and was about to get in the shower when I heard it go off again, I smiled and ran back to it to read the message.
-Yah, don't start the teach thing again missy See you later Miss Hwang
Don't forget my homework
;)-Ah another winky face! Should I send one back or is that too weird?
- Sorry TAEYEON -_-How could I forget that? ;) Now shh, you're distracting
me-I exhaled happily, me-I was talking like this with my crush, with the girl me-I have fallen for. Life couldn't be better right now. Well, it would be if we were together but hopefully that will come....
...
"Good morning guys, today's a good day huh?" She smiled. Yes it certainly is.
Everyone said good morning and she gave us work to do, towards the end of the lesson she then gave us partner work to do again, same partners. Hell yes.
I made my way up, making sure to roll my eyes at the smirk directed at me and plonked myself down on the seat there.
"Sorry for distracting you Miss Hwang" she winked "I'll make sure not to do it again..." No!
"Nono, it's fine I was kidding" I chuckled. She couldn't back out now.
"Hm, okay. But those are private okay? Counselling is a confidential thing."
I think she was giving me a hint about not showing them to Jessica or Khun. Of course I wouldn't, Jess had the biggest mouth going and I couldn't risk losing Taeyeon.
"Of course" I gave her a reassuring smile and sat back in my chair, stretching my muscles. "Are you going on the school trip to that gallery Monday?" I asked in English, since it's an English lesson and plus I didn't want others to understand our conversation
"Yup, I'm one of the poor people who have to keep the students in line" she replied as she rolled her eyes.
"Ha! Have fun with that!"
"Are you not going?" She gave a frown as if to say she wanted me to.
"No I am, but you won't have to keep me in line" I whispered. "Im a good girl"
She snorted and shook her head "Of course you are" she looked at me for a while before lowering her voice. "What are you doing for lunch today?"
Was she asking me on a lunch date?!
"Hm, I don't know, why?"
"Come and keep me company?" Oh hell yes
"Of course"
Okay now I was over the moon. It's one thing to text cutely but to speak in person cutely was a whole other level.
"Alright I'll meet you in here later. Class is over anyway. Guys class dismissed, you worked well. Bye!" She then turned to me and gave me a million dollar smile
"Bye Tiff"
Oh my fucking god she gave me a nickname. "Tiff? What's up with that Tae?"
Mhm that's right, you play I play right back...
"Your name is too long to say constantly so I shortened it for my own sake"
another wink. "See you at lunch"
"Bye"
...
"Yo" I said as I walked into the classroom after coming from my last lesson. I found I was getting more and more confident with Taeyeon and I loved it.
"What are you, a gangster now?"
"Mhm" your pink gangsta
"Strange child....anyway. Do you want to go somewhere for lunch?"
"What, you mean out of the school?" Yes yes yes!
"Yeah, we may have to sneak out but we can do it" Why would we have to sneak if we had nothing to hide? I was getting more and more hints as we went along.
"How?"
"Well if you go around the back of the school, I'll pick you up there okay? We have an hour so we can go to a place further away" she smiled.
"Alright, let's do it"
So our little escape plan went well, nobody saw us and we were on our way to wherever she wanted to go for lunch. I was itching to ask if she took other students out like this but it might ruin out lunch date so I planned to ask her on the way back.
She pulled up outside a little cafe, it was cute and I hadn't been before so was really excited about spending it with Taeyeon. We entered and sat down opposite each other in the corner of the cafe.
"This is nice, have you been here before?" I asked
"Yeah, I come here often actually. The food is great, they have some American stuff too so I thought you'd like it" she smiled at me and I returned it. Was she trying to impress me? If so it was definitely working, well obviously.
"Cute" I said as I looked at the menu, I could feel her staring at me so I tried to be sexy. I opened my mouth and licked my bottom lip while I read. Out of the corner of my eye I could see her shift in her seat and couldn't hold back my smile.
"What?" She asked
"Nothing" I chuckled. "Do you know what you're ordering?"
"Yup"
"I might have a burger" but they're messy and that won't look great in front of her.
"Actually I'll have eels" safer choice....but then again she did bring me here because it had American food. "No I'll have the burger".
She chuckled "Are you always this indecisive?" When it comes to impressing you, yes.
"Ah, yeah" I think I was blushing.
The waitress came over and asked for our orders, brought us our drinks and told us food wouldn't be long.
"So, don't you leave school grounds to eat?" Taeyeon asked as she sipped on her soda.
I nodded. "Sometimes I'd go for a pizza with Jess or Nic but this is my first time this term" I noticed her clench her jaw when I mentioned Nichkhun.
"Ah cool." She said simply and turned away from me. Was this jealousy? I was determined to find out.
"Mmm. Sometimes Nic would treat me to a huge meal. Bless him"
"Yeah, bless him" she sighed. "How are you guys anyway?"
"We're fine actually. Ever since the fight he's been giving me flowers and staying over my house a lot" not true but I need to see her reaction.
"..." She simply stared at me, luckily the waitress came and interrupted us with our food or I think she may have just started to glare at me.
Wow, the burger was huge. "Damn, I may need a doggy bag or two" I chuckled, Taeyeon didn't. She poked her Bulgogi with her chopsticks, her head resting on her hand. "Are you okay?" I didn't mean to make her mood drop.
"Yeah, just thinking"
I needed to make her feel good. "This is really nice, thank you Taeyeon, I love it."
I gave her an eyesmile and...yep it worked. She smiled right back.
"No problem. Again, this is confidential please"
"Of course, you can trust me" I reassured her. She nodded.
We ate in silence for a couple of minutes and yes, I did need a doggy bag. We paid for our meals and then went out to the car. Now I would ask my question.
"Taeyeon?"
"Yep?"
"I'm kinda curious about something". It's now or never.
"What's that?" She smiled.
"Do you bring....other students out like this?" Shit. Her smile disappeared and I saw her knuckles that were gripping onto the steering wheel turn white.
"No." She said simply, her tone final but I was determined.
"So why me?"
She looked over at me when we stopped at a red light and looked down. She opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out at first. "I....like you as a person and get along well with you"
Oh my god. I was dead.
"I feel the same Tae" I hoped that wasn't too forward. But I guess not because she broke into a huge smile.
"That's good"
And that was it for the rest of the ride. We sneaked back into school and resumed our day. I didn't see her at the end of school but the memory of our....well I hoped it was a sort of date....anyway the memory of that would probably last me through the weekend.